As a child self-raised on comic books, the lyrics to that song always stuck out to me as the ideal of heroism, and the adoption of the mentality of just never quitting, never giving up, and always pursuing self-betterment.
It's been the guiding principle of humanist ethics that I've always tried to maintain and hold myself to, being a modern day superhero. I have one tattoo of an Omega symbol that represents "Be a better man than you were yesterday." Helping others has just always been something I see as a duty, so I tend to be a pretty stringent advocate for equality, kindness, science, tolerance, and best ethics independent of politics.
I completely understand how some people barely have "the spoons" to get through day to day life. I tend to have more spoons than most, so I have a lot of effort that I'm happy to throw toward causes for the greatest good. I speak out because I am able and free to do so. So long as we've done our part to leave the world in a better place than we've found it, we've made progress by inches.
I was the shy awkward kid who ate alone behind the gym before I kinda blossomed in life, post homelessness. It was a challenge to me to create the life I wanted from nothing, so with no degree I began as a pool cabana boy.
20 Years later, I'm a psychiatric hospital director with degrees in nursing and writing, a backgrounds in pharmaceutical laboratory research, children's psych, neuro-psych research, and science funding facilitation. I'm a published ghost writer for psych professionals. I've been on TV shows, commercials and movies, and have been adult *ahem* talent.
I have a wealth of friends that I consider to be my found family. While I have no children of my own, I've got 2 adorable nephews that I can borrow any time I want to indulge in my paternal instincts. I've got a wonderfully eccentric, fully solar smart-house and drive a Prius. And while I currently have no pets, I am known for my love of schnauzers.
I'm at a place in life where life is honestly great. I'm stable, secure, and I'm free to indulge in a life that is as silly and colorful life that I want.
But while I enjoy what I do, I've never been the type of person who has defined himself by his job.
I define myself more by how I live and my philosophies. I'm an optimistic, nihilistic, existential, utilitarian, humanistic, hedonistic, absurdist. Effectively, I believe that there is no purpose to life and it is a cold uncaring universe. But within that vacuum, we are free to determine our own purpose, and in acting it out, fulfill our purpose. I have chosen my purpose to do the most good possible for the most people, balanced by the desire to seek out and enjoy every last drop of experience because the time we have right now is all that matters. In that, happiness is the only thing of value, and in order to maximize happiness, we must learn to contend with the tragedies of life, which I do through absurdity and mocking of reality any chance I get.
But in this... I'm always happy. I'm always appreciative. I enjoy every moment of life simply because I choose to focus on the good.
I am more than the sum of my parts
While I'm happy to give a comprehensive look at who I am through narrative, the pictures of my life, my social media profiles, my writings, etc... I recognize that I may appear at times to be a caricature at times. What is left out is the nuance behind those moments, the quiet times, the gentle softness, and the tender sensitivity.
Underneath all of the volume and color is a very genuine heart that burns with compassion, and a mind that leaves no stones unturned.
Politics
I was raised as an Evangelical Christian Republic. Both of these were values that I more or less adopted simply because I was raised in them and they were the beliefs of my family. But even as a child, I found myself distrustfully questioning the mercurial values of Christianity. But it wasn't until college that I sat down and read the Bible with a science mind and a critical eye to become an Atheist.
Unsurprisingly, it was that time that I used Libertarianism as a stepping stone out of the comfort zone of my upbringing. While I appreciated the values of freedom of Libertarianism, I found them to be woefully idealistic and rejecting of reality and the way things really are.
I've always been Liberal by nature of sentiment. By while Democratic electors tend to get me vote, it's purely out of practicality. I believe that they are "more correct," than Conservatives, and have better practical application, but I find that my values most align with Transhumanist policy and beliefs. Effectively, what can be proven to be best defined and true is correct independent of feelings or emotions. It's the closest political idea to data driven objectivism. With anything, I place highest values in logic, rationality, philosophical consistency, empirical evidence, and the scientific process.
Consumed...
There is no heaven, nor hell aside from that which we create in the now. We have 70-90 years to impact as much as we can, and enjoy as much as we can. I've never understood how so many people can voluntarily relinquish there limited time to passive mediocrity.
I'm big on memories. I take a lot of pictures every day. 30 years from now, as my mind dulls and my memories fade, I want to have photographic triggers to refresh the emotions of a life well spent. It's also partially why I enjoy costuming so much. It's an opportunity to make something more memorable by making it more ridiculous.
...but Chill
I call myself a Type A- personality. I’m enthusiastic, driven, and ravenous. Life is hard. We can either choose to become victims, or we can choose to be conquerors. I have long decided that I will conquer and create my own success through the effort of will and productivity. I'm someone who always fills his schedule and stays busy between work, crafting, gaming, leisure, and friendship.
However, I say “A-” personality because even though I have that ravenous intensity, my nature is laid back, easy going, and low maintenance. I don't rarely get stressed. I don't get anxious. I tend to be extremely easy going with low preference. I'm not jealous. I forgive naturally and easily, to my own detriment at times.
But I see most things through the scope of, "what is the impact to my life?" "Will having an emotional reaction make things better or worse.?" I've died a few times and embraced and accepted my end with calm reflectiveness and appreciation. If I'm alive at any given moment, there is little to panicked over. (Except for injured birds waking up and going ape shit while you're trying to rescue them.)
Neurodivergence
As if you couldn't tell, I'm someone who puts very little value into traditions and customs for their own sake. I'm rational, calculating, but also honest with my emotions and have little filter. At my worst, I've been accused / praised as having a mind like a Vulcan.
For me, being logically correct is more important than feelings. If the facts don’t support what I feel, then it’s up to me to alter my understanding to be more in line with what is correct. But the benefit is that I don't tend to linger stubbornly on invested beliefs. If someone can provide a more reasoned argument, I will change my position on an issue like a light switch. Similarly, I don't get hung up on pride and am quick to apologize when I am in the wrong. Success at life is dependent on the speed at which we adapt and course correct.
For me, being neurospicy has more played out as a superpower that has gotten me where I am today. The only deficit is that I don't always pick up on sarcasm or when someone is screwing with me.
Knowledge Drive
Never stop learning. Never stop being curious. Never stop appreciating.
I've never been content to simply "not know." For me, curiosity is the fuel that feeds my passions. I want to know as much as I can. So it's my nature to just to deep dives and become novice experts in various subjects. I've always been science minded. And I love to surround myself with peers who are intelligent and have someone that I can gleam from them and add to my own knowledge base.
I love hearing about people's interests and passions. We all become better by teaching one another what we know (so long as it's true.) And to that I also love being the hospital orientation educator. I love transmitting my passion like a virus to those in my classes.
I'm a bit more than a jack of all trades, master of none. I'm more of a Zac of all trades, master of some. And if I don't know or have answer, give me 24 hours and I'll find out.
Sexuality
I think there are 3 types of people in the bedroom:
1. Those who do not enjoy sex.
2. Those who enjoy sex.
3. Those who are sexual beings.
Just as all aspects of my life are driven by passion, so too is my sexuality. And while sex is always a topic people shy away from, I believe it's important to be up front about it as it can be a make or break factor that should be contended with early on.
If you are intimidated by someone who experienced, then I am not the man for you. Sexuality has always been a defining factor of my identity. I shy away from nothing and talk about it openly (when appropriate).
I disdain labels, but could be best identified as a primal, voracious sensualist. My drive tends to be fairly ravenous and becoming lost in the carnality of passion. Think naturally dominant, but more from action as opposed to the put on social role, but instead a primitive lust of desirous taking.
I'm more experienced than most and am no stranger to swinging, threesomes, bulling, etc... So long as trust is high, I have very low jealously. I'm just as comfortable with open relationships, swinging relationships, poly, or monogamy, dependent on what is right with the right person. But while comfortable with short term poly, it's not what I'm looking for long term.
I pride myself on being responsible and have never contracted any STDs or caused any unintended pregnancies (which would be difficult any more with my vasectomy...) I find that I'm more sexually compatible with those who prefer a more dominant and masculine man. I'm experienced, and enjoy teaching in the bedroom as I do everywhere else.
Interests
Hobbies:
Costuming, Leather Crafting, Mycology, VR gaming, AR gaming, Pokemon GO, Fighting Games, Hiking, Disc Golf, Roller Blading, Long Boarding, Theme Parks, Cultural Festivals, Pool Parties, Hosting Social Gatherings, Ren Faires, Political Activism, 420 Movie Nights, D&D, Sewing, Dueling: (Foil , Epee, Saber), Animal Lover, Private Movies, Sustainable Living, Comic Books, Classic Lit, Board Games, Highland Games, Horror, Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Anime, Blogging, DJing, Arcades, Museums, Concerts, Symphonies, Mini Painting,
Fandoms:
Marvel, DC, Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, House of Dragons, Conan, The Good Place, Love Death Robots, Love on the Spectrum, X-Men, Star Wars, Star Trek, Steam Punk, Horror, Godzilla, Philosophy, Invincible, One Punch Man, Delicious in Dungeon, Lord of the Rings, Rings of Power, Dr Who, Death Note, Predator, Babylon 5, Bioshock, Borderlands, Castlevania, Street Fighter, Mortal Kombat, Fallout, Frankenstein, Werewolf, Dracula, Hunger Games, Matrix, 5th Element, Mega Man, Metalocaplyse, Minecraft, Portal, Shakespeare, Spider-Man, Superman, Batman, Transformers, Warcraft, Swing,
Music:
Metal, Ska, Grunge, Punk, Power Metal, Electro-Swing, Big Band, Musicals, Classic Rock, Alternative, Lo-Fi, Jazz, Scores, Symphonic, Justice, They Might Be Giants, Type O Negative, Mike Patton, Mr Bungle, KMFDM, Daft Punk, Savant, The Megas, Protomen, ABBA, Billy Joel, Caravan Palace, Aquabats, Hamilton, Wicked, Ben Folds, Beatles, Sonata Arctica, Dethklok